As part of our Adoption process we are told that we need to take a vacation BEFORE we have children placed with us. To kind of unwind, relax and prepare ourselves for what lies ahead. (All you mothers know exactly what they are talking about......don't you?) We have been searching all sorts of vacation plans (note previous blogs) And it is a tough thing to do. We are in family mode in our minds. All we want to do is play. We couldn't think of a 'serious' 'grown-up' vacation. Is that weird. We have planned out the next 15 years of family vacations though. :) So after many weeks of different vacation plans.....we decided 'DISNEYLAND'. I know, it is a bit odd. But we are still children ourselves. The funny thing is, I feel so guilty about not taking our children. And we don't even know who they are!!!???!!! How weird is that?
It has been a strange experience. The whole adoption process. Years ago we thought we would adopt a baby. We even filled out ALL the paperwork for the agency. And let me tell you....it is a lot of paperwork. But it just didn't feel like it was time. We hummed, and hawwed. And then withdrew from the process. We couldn't really tell you why. Then a few years later we thought, OK....we need to get this taken care of.......and did it all over again. But again, we withdrew. There was something holding us back. Not that we didn't want children.....it just wasn't time. Now, it is kind of funny. We cannot wait until we find them. Almost like something exploded inside us. This process takes too much time. The great thing is. Our children are out there already. They have been born. We don't know where they are, Who they are, or when we will get them. But they are there. Looking at the same stars we are. Waiting for us to come and get them. This was the opportunity we have been waiting for. There is no way that I could care for an infant in my condition. To have to pick it up hundreds of times a day would have been physically impossible. I would have done it anyway.....but would have paid for it too. With this adoption the youngest we can get is 18 months. Already toddling. Not needing to be picked up ALL the time. Ready to play. Ready to communicate. And I have to be ready to tell them that we went to Disneyland without them:)
Blog to you soon :)
2 comments:
Leslie...I'm just so excited for you guys...how cool is this going to be???? So glad it feels so right...that's just the way it should be! I'm really excited to hear more about the whole process...sad you won't be at book club.
Disneyland rocks!!! (But just to toss out one other random idea - did you consider a Disney cruise? We went on one a few years ago with another couple. No kids! It was a blast!)
I do hope you'll update your blog regularly with updates on the whole adoption process. I'm so excited for you!!!
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