Sally

On Wednesday I got really bored. I ran out of books to read in the house and was too restless to take a nap. So instead......I caught a bug. I hear it is going around....and is super contagious. As a matter of fact I know that a few of my Bloggie friends have caught it too. Maybe even gave it to me :)

I joined facebook.

But, on the good side. I found my bestest best friend from my youth. Sally. And for that I am truly grateful for contagiousness. She lives close and we will see each other in the next few days. I haven't been this happy since........since.......I don't know when.

I will never have anything bad to say about facebook from now on. It has brought me a very special gift that I will treasure always......and never let her go again.

OHSU

Not to trash on Lugenbill.....but the doctor that I saw today was more informative than any other OB/GYN that I've ever been too. And most of you know how great Lugenbill was. She touched on everything that has ever been wrong with me including infertility. Where was she ten years ago?

I don't have all the answers yet...but I feel like some are coming soon. We are trying a few new things and in a month I will have another appointment. Hopefully, by then, all the cultures and tests will be back from the lab. But.....Dang.....I'm so glad that I didn't have to wait until July. My mood has lifted just from today. Finally, I feel a little bit of hope........

Commitee

We have been selected to go to committee for a 14 year old girl. The original date was April 15th. We found out today that it has been pushed out a couple of weeks because one of the other families that want to adopt her was not 'Ready'. We are pretty cranky about that. How horrible to make this poor girl wait longer for her family.

We are very excited.....but still feeling weird. We have been selected for other committees, but this is the first one that is scheduled. We still don't know if we will be chosen. So we have decided to wait until the very last moment to shop and decorate. There is no way to know how to decorate a room for either a girl a boy or both. Besides....I'm sure the child or children would love to pick out their own things. So, here we wait with two empty rooms in our house. It feels kind of hollow. But we are happy anyway :)

Miracle of Miracles

I called OHSU today to see if they had a cancellation.........YES!! I have an appointment on Thursday morning. Sounds much better than July 9th. It is astonishing how much more alive I feel just knowing that I don't have to wait as long for the doctor. :)

Dogs are human too.....

Elphaba is our baby. She is two years old now. Gauper is 10 years and Kestra is 9 1/2. It is funny to me to watch Kestra and Gauper raise Elphaba. She is the perfect half of each of them. Gauper has an Eeyore mentality and Kestra is a protector of the mama. Elphaba has both of those personalities within her.

I remember when we first adopted Gauper. He had a mate......her name was Gayla. They were soul mates. They never were apart. Gayla died when she was 6 months old. Tragic swimming pool accident. And Gauper was devistated. He moped around the house for days. Looking for her. It was absolutely heart renching. He seemed to be suffering just as much as we were. Maybe more. So we decided to get him another mate. We went to go pick her up.......and she litterally cried all the way home. I wanted to turn around and take her back. Gauper was horrified that we thought we could replace Gayla. He was grumpy and did not accept her for three to four weeks. Then one day we caught them playing. We didn't want him to know we were watching so we hid around the corner. He was teaching Kestra how to be like Gayla. Gayla was the Alpha dog in the relationship......and he obviously did not want that role.

No one can convince us that these dogs don't think like humans. .I remember a time that the dogs were in the car with us.....actually they were in my seat when I wanted in.....so I looked at them in the eyes and said "back seat". The next thing I knew.....both dogs were jumping into the back seat. I had never taught them that command. So I decided to try other tricks. It worked the same way. They seemed to understand exactly what I was saying. When we first adopted Elphaba, it was difficult to communicate with her......but we then realized that she didn't know english yet. We are just realizing that she has picked up on it with out telling us. So.......now she does tricks.

Trust me..........our dogs ARE our children. I do not see them as lower life forms. They are a perfect part of our household. And much needed :)

How much is too much?

I've read more than 25 books in the last three months. I'm starting to dream in book form. It's pretty funny. Like someone is narrating my dream for me......

"Did you see the person who fell?" he asks quietly once we're on our way.
"I couldn't see anything."
"You don't think..." Gil shifts forward in his seat.
"Think what?"

It is pretty cool. Even if it is all gibberish.

Inspiring Quote

Pain can be endured and defeated only if it is embraced. Denied or feared, it grows in perception if not in reality.

Dean Koontz ~ Velocity