Happy Place

As part of our Adoption process we are told that we need to take a vacation BEFORE we have children placed with us. To kind of unwind, relax and prepare ourselves for what lies ahead. (All you mothers know exactly what they are talking about......don't you?) We have been searching all sorts of vacation plans (note previous blogs) And it is a tough thing to do. We are in family mode in our minds. All we want to do is play. We couldn't think of a 'serious' 'grown-up' vacation. Is that weird. We have planned out the next 15 years of family vacations though. :) So after many weeks of different vacation plans.....we decided 'DISNEYLAND'. I know, it is a bit odd. But we are still children ourselves. The funny thing is, I feel so guilty about not taking our children. And we don't even know who they are!!!???!!! How weird is that?

It has been a strange experience. The whole adoption process. Years ago we thought we would adopt a baby. We even filled out ALL the paperwork for the agency. And let me tell you....it is a lot of paperwork. But it just didn't feel like it was time. We hummed, and hawwed. And then withdrew from the process. We couldn't really tell you why. Then a few years later we thought, OK....we need to get this taken care of.......and did it all over again. But again, we withdrew. There was something holding us back. Not that we didn't want children.....it just wasn't time. Now, it is kind of funny. We cannot wait until we find them. Almost like something exploded inside us. This process takes too much time. The great thing is. Our children are out there already. They have been born. We don't know where they are, Who they are, or when we will get them. But they are there. Looking at the same stars we are. Waiting for us to come and get them. This was the opportunity we have been waiting for. There is no way that I could care for an infant in my condition. To have to pick it up hundreds of times a day would have been physically impossible. I would have done it anyway.....but would have paid for it too. With this adoption the youngest we can get is 18 months. Already toddling. Not needing to be picked up ALL the time. Ready to play. Ready to communicate. And I have to be ready to tell them that we went to Disneyland without them:)

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BEST NEWS

It's been a bit since I've been on here. I haven't had any time to just talk or write. It's been a great week though. We went home for a few days this last week. I love doing yard work. Oh, I missed it so much. Even in the rain :) We got to spend time with friends and family. You couldn't ask for a better Vacation. Although....it does not fall within the "Dream Vacation" realm. Have any of you been to the 'Melting Pot' in Portland? YOU HAVE TO GO. It was absolutely wonderful. I recommend taking great friends with you. It definitely made the evening. And the food......YUMMY. GO! Enough said.

The best news: We have decided that we are ready to be a family!!! Can you believe it? After 14 years of trying to do it naturally.....we have decided that adoption is the way for us. We are so excited. We start all of the classes and home studies this next month. And who knows, we might have a family by Christmas. Maybe. We are so ready for this next step in life. I know I wouldn't have been ready if it weren't for such great friends. Seeing them be a family and how much they wouldn't trade it for the world. All the love and frustration that comes with it :) We are hoping to find a family group. Maybe 3-4 siblings that need parents. We thought.....if we are going to do it....we might as well do it. All the advice you can give us will be greatly appreciated. I know my bookclub group will be immersed with questions. I know I will be making a list.

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